old memories rushed back to my mind n i suddenly yearn for time to turn back..
itz only until now that i finally realised that i do hv many supportive frenz by my side to hold me thru the difficult, emo periods of sec sch life..
re-reading all those letters again brings smiles back on my face..
itz heart-aching to say now that the whole lot of us is no longer in so close contact..
i really miss all of them.. L.kailing, xiuhui, chongxin, yanqi, edmund, sandra....
been thinking thru many things lately..
shld i continue my bond after 5yrs?
shld i further my studies after 1yr of svc?
where does my future lies?
when will it be THE time? etc etc..
time really waits for no man..
very soon, i'll be steeping out into the cruel society to fight for a standing place, to fight for my own survival..
frankly speaking, i'm really scared coz i dun know if i'll hv the abilities to handle what might come in the future.
my responsibilities n burden will definitely increase, that's for sure,
but i know i must work hard, for our future coz i dun wana wait til i'm a 高龄产妇 to give birth..
i know we still hv a long way to go, a long way to work hard for..
i juz hope that things will go on smoothly as planned..
my mind is in a mess..
random thoughts juz rushed thru in n out..
i still do not hv any answers to my queries.
but one thing i discovered recently is that,
i get emo v easily, with tears flowing like running tap,
i cant get to slp til the wee hrs of the night even thou i'm v tired, like now..
suddenly, i juz cant seem to understand myself..
flying towards my dreams
@ |1/22/2007 11:02:00 PM|